Kimberlyn Renea

I tell people about my scars & suicidal thoughts in real life.. & they turn farther away from me. Thanks guys, when I needed you the most..

I’m slowly fading away.. It’ll be easier for everyone this way

You told me to text you whenever I felt down and depressed.. You told me you were just a call away if I ever felt the need to again.. I was stupid and believed you. I believed someone might be able to help me, but you gave up on me.. just like everyone else.

My ex boyfriend, of 7 months, recently got into a real bad car incident which involved two fireworks blew up in the car he was in. He’s had one surgery and will have another one in about 2 weeks. It’s crazy how much I think about him. I can’t get him off my mind. It’s just like when we were dating again.

I finally convinced myself I was over him. I wasn’t thinking about him all the time, I could picture myself with other guys.. Then this happened & thousands of memories flooded back into my mind. And stayed there ever since. I care about him so much.. Him being 500 miles away in a hospital in so much pain is killing me.. But what’s really killing me is.. He won’t care. I’m his ex, he’s moved on. After I’ve done so much for him in the past week, it’ll be worth nothing to him. I am nothing to him.

Yet.. I love that kid. I do, I love him.

Yesterday was one of the hardest days of my life. My friend was killed in a car accident. While we weren’t super close, it’s still crazy to think I’ll never be able to see her beautiful happy smile again.

She attends my school’s rival school. Within a year, our two school systems have experienced 3 student deaths. While we can argue back and forth about who’s going to win a sporting event, it amazes me how we always seem to come together.